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10:13pm 30/12/2003
 
mood: mellow
Okay, so I don't really feel like writing a huge update so here it is:

Family got a digital video camera and treadmill.

I got the John Mayer: Any Given Thursday cd, Pirates of the Caribbean dvd, a violin charm for the bracelet of conformity, and 5 dollars (don't ask), oh yeah - and a box of sugar free turtles - which by the way I do not like.

Yeah, so that was my Christmas.

I got yelled at by my dad for not wanting to babysit my niece and nephew. Probably because I swore at my mom. >.<

I bought the extended version of TTT. I love commentaries. ^_^

I babysat 10 children with Holly. That was interesting. A 13 year old hit on me. A little boy told me I was pretty. And I wanted to take a little Russian girl home with me. Oh - and one of the mothers looked like Bonnie Hunt.

Okay - so here's the funny quote of the day from my mom.

I was reading the article in Teen People about him and the starting line is "Who knew an elf could be so sexy?"

Mom: If Santa had elves like that, I would move to the North Pole.

Later -

Mom: Where is he from?
Me: Uh... England, Canterbury I think.
Mom: So, he has an English accent? Wooo, that's sexy.
Me: o.O Did you just say sexy?


Later yet -

I read one question to Orli about what he notices about a girl first. Which was eyes and smile.

Mom: Oh, he's lying. Come on, if he sees a big-chested woman, do you think he's looking at her EYES? NO!

::laughs hysterically:: If you know my mother, you will find this hilarious as well. She always makes fun of me for my obsession with Johnny and Orli. Now she's making comments like that about him! She cracks me up sometimes.

What else... hm, dad just tried to braid my hair. He was fumbling around with my hair and I was laughing and he goes "What, you don't think I can do it!?" and I shook my head and he threw my hair down and goes "Well, you're right."

My cousin and I spent the whole day together yesterday. She had some doctors appointments to go to and we went to some stores to look at baby stuff. Well, we were looking at the video camers and digital cameras - you know, to take pictures of the baby. There was this guy in a bright green hat and then all black. He was a strange fellow. Anyways, he was following me around. Well, one camera was on, so I wanted to take a picture, but my cousin didn't want one of her taken. So I was facing her and I go "Well, where's the green hat guy?" and I said it rather loudly because I coudln't see him. I didn't see him because he was standing right behind me. >.< He just looked at me and then looked away rather quickly. Oops.

Can't think of anything else at the moment.
 
     

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06:39pm 08/09/2003
 
mood: confused
My head is pounding so hard I think it might explode. Really - it will.

School is going all right. My work load is quite minimal, so I'm thinking of looking for a job. I noticed that Target is hiring. I really don't want to work at a fast food place. But, I'll look around else where. If worse comes to worse, I'll lower myself to fast food. Hell, it's a job.

I've decided that I am going to collect all dvds with Johnny Depp. ^_^ I got Edwards Scissorhands the other day at Target for ten dollars. Hooray for cheap dvds!

Ryan and Jenny broke up. I don't feel right telling all about it. But, let's just say Ryan is a jerk.

Blah. I have eaten so many salads that I am beginning to hate lettuce. My mom made salmon, broccoli, and a salad for dinner. Salmon - blah. I'm not a fan of fish. As I said, I've had one too many salads in the past few weeks. But, the broccoli was really good. I put some soy sauce on it, and mmmmm mmm, it was delicious. Man, I'm talking about my dinner. How odd is that?

Anyway - my friend Ryan's birthday was Saturday. He turned 18 - crazy. I met him when he was fifteen. He's off at college now. He is living with his brother Zac, his friend Brent, and this other guy Jack in a house of their own. He's really happy about that because coming from a large family, he's never had his own room. Heh - he was so cute about it. He was like "Heather! I have a room - all - by - myself! No one else! NO ONE!"

We were talking and he goes "yeah... so, I cut my hair." Okay, that's fine. It will grow back, right? Then he goes "And... dyed it black." Man - did I freak out! I shrieked and then started laughing while Ryan tried to get my attention. Then before I know it, his friend Brent is on the phone going "Heather, Heather - calm down. His hair looks fine. Trust me, I did it myself. He doesn't look gay anymore." Ha. He started babbling and I was like "Right - you're breaking up, I can't hear you." and he laughs and goes "Ah - well, maybe that's a good thing." Strange guy.

Every story Ryan has to tell me is about a girl. He always starts his stories like "So Brent and I were..." and then it leads into where he met a girl. It was about the fourth story and I was like "Is this about a girl Ryan?" and he goes "Haha, yeah" So I go - "You know, all of your stories are about the opposite sex, and you do remember that you are talking to a member of the opposite sex, right?" heh, he just kinda laughed and kept going. ::rolls eyes::

Eh, I think I should be going...
 
     

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04:45pm 01/09/2003
 
mood: blah
Well - I haven't updated in a while, so I suppose I should.

Summer is ending, and it's sad. School is looming over me like a huge tidal wave ready to suck me in and drown me.

I don't want to go to school - as if you couldn't tell. I'm not looking forward to Prairie State Exams and ACTs and such. Blah! Although, I am looking forward to writing the junior year term paper. I like writing so, I like that sort of stuff. Plus - I have Torbert for English so it makes it that much better.

My family has had a few shockers this past week. My cousin Dena is pregnant. She's not married and will not be marrying the father of the child. She's currently living with her best friend Jerid, who is gay. That child is going to be very confused. Dena wasn't even supposed to be able to have children - so I think they are worried that the child might have something wrong with it. I'm not sure what she has that was supposed to prevent her from having children.

Secondly, my sister-in-law Kelli is expecting another baby in April - the same month as Dena by the way. My mom asked my brother, Greg, whether they wanted a boy or a girl, and he goes "Oh, we want a baby brother, don't we Emilee?" Emilee is three by the way. She hit him and goes "No Dad! I want a baby sister!"

Heh, so cute. I think if they have a boy, they are going to name it Garrett. That is what they were planning on the first time - but they had a girl instead, obviously.

I went to a Labor Day picnic yesterday. It was with my dad's cousins and their families. This lady - she is like a thrid cousin to me - she and her husband have seven children, ranging from the ages of 17 years to 9 months. Can you believe that? Crazy.

They have this every year, and every year I sit very quietly, keeping to myself because I don't know anyone. This year, that lady's oldest son who is 17 decided he was going to make me participate. He made me play baseball - in the rain. I was soaked, I was cold, and we lost.

A couple of guys took the role of captians, they are Asian - strange how mixed up my family is. Anyways - I have met the one guy before. Gary is pretty nice, kinda quiet, but nice. Yesterday was the first time I met his brother - David. I didn't like him.

He is one of those guys that just gives off that air like he is better than everyone else. I was listening to them discuss who was going to play and which teams they would be on. And he called my father - 'the old man'. I thought that was incredibly rude. He said it with such... comtept, like it was absurd that this man would be able to play baseball. I nearly started crying. It was just... it hurt so much. I don't know if it was just the reality that my father is getting old hitting me or what. He's 58... he'll be 60 when I graduate. Four years minimum for college... that's 64. He already has problems with his back. I want my parents to be around when I get married and have children. I grew up without grandparents - I don't want that for my children.

Weddings make me think of bride's maids - your best friends. Best friends makes me think of how I have none! Jenny apologized for leaving me out - but every other day, Amber's car is always sitting in the drive way. I've gotten a call ONCE. And it wasn't one of those "Amber is coming over soon, do you want to come over?" It was an "Amber is already here... do you want to come over?" Which means... they invited me over guilt. It's a great feeling to know that you're an afterthought.

This is depressing. Lately, I haven't had anything to be happy about.

Oh wait... I take that back. I found the Benny and Joon dvd and Shopko for 10 dollars. That made me very happy. Johnny Depp is adorable in that movie. It's funny too. I highly recommend it. Yay for Johnny Depp.

Hm - how long is it until December 17? Do you think I can read the entire LotR trilogy by then? I'm only thirty pages into the Fellowship. I never finished the Hobbit. I lost it somewhere in my car. ^_^ Oops.

I think that's about it. Yep - it is.
 
     

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10:04pm 19/08/2003
 
mood: amused
Ringo: When I was sixteen, I thought that all people over sixty should be shot. They were just taking up space.

Conan: So, how old are you now?

Ringo: ::pause:: Time to be shot.

I love Conan. I love Ringo's glasses. ^_^
 
     

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09:29pm 19/08/2003
 
mood: chipper
Man, my foot is asleep. I really don't like that feeling.

I'm such an idiot sometimes. >.< I went and spent all of my money. Heh - I bought FFX and this racing game the my nephew has. I became obsessed with it over the last couple of days, so I got it for myself. ^_^

Yeah - so I got Dan a card for his birthday. But, I didn't get him anything else yet. I don't know what to actually buy - so he may just get money. Eh - who doesn't like money?

I didn't have violin lessons today so I feel kind of empty. >.< I haven't practiced. I've been messing around with the piano instead. Aw man, I want to take lessons so badly. Moma won't let me. She says "one instrument at a time". You know what! She just doesn't want to pay for another one.

Gr. I wanted to go get Benny and Joon at Videos 4 Less because Video Goldmine didn't have it. Well - my mom's membership expired a long time ago. Plus - you have to be 18 to get a membership so I couldn't get one obviously. Mom had a headache, so she didnt' want to come with me. Boob. So! No Johnny Depp-y goodness for me tonight. >.<

Something funny happened today. But I forgot what it was.

Oh! Ryan can't remember who my friends are. So, he asked me to make a list. ^_^ Haha. That's amusing.

I bet my mom is angry that I am on the computer because that means she can't sign online downstairs. Oops. I hear her footsteps. They are not happy footsteps. o.O

I'm waiting for her to knock on the wall and tell me to get off. You know how we learned about classical conditioning? Well - I have associated footsteps with getting in trouble. When I get in trouble, my stomach tightens. Now - when I hear footsteps, my stomach tightens. ^_^

Speaking of psych... I want to take AP psych. Do you think I would be able to still take it? I mean - will the guidance office bite my head off if I try to take it?

Derek, you left your class schedule at my house. Just thought I would inform you.

Cheryl, you left your clothes. Eh, I already told you that.

I want to watch Chicago. I wish I had gone to the video store, but I really wanted to see Benny and Joon. >.<

This is a really random post.
 
     

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09:10pm 18/08/2003
 
mood: sleepy
0. TIME YOU START : 9:44
1. NAME: Heather
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?: Not really - my mom had a dream that she named her daughter Heather. So, I guess technically I was named after a dream baby. ^_^
3. SCHOOL: BHS
4. MASCOT: Blah - the Buc.
5. NICKNAME: Heath
6. BIRTHDAY: 7/31/87
7. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?: Here
8. HAVING FUN: Uh - sure?
9. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN ON THE COMPUTER?: Not very long
10. GPA AVERAGE: 3.7
11. HEIGHT: 5'7
12. SHOE SIZE: 9
13. HAIR COLOR: Brown
14. EYE COLOR: Green
15. SIBLINGS: One sister and one brother.
16. DO YOU LIKE HIM/HER/THEM?: Yeah
17. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATRE: Uptown Girls
18. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: The Hours (>.< Too confusing for me!)
19. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: Science
20. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MATH: It's not that bad - but I don't like it.
22. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?: No
23. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: Eh - sorta
24. DO YOU THINK IT COULD EVER HAPPEN?: Eh - no.
25. IS HE OR SHE GOOD LOOKING?: My 'crush'? In his own way, yes
26. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Julia Roberts
27. FAVORITE ACTOR: Johnny Depp
28. FAVORITE MOVIE: PotC
29. FAVORITE TV SHOW(S): Late Night with Conan O'Brian
30. FAVORITE SONG: too many to choose just one >.<
31. FAVORITE FOOD: Hm - mom's cheesy potatos
32. FAVORITE COLOR: dark red
33. FAVORITE SINGER/GROUP: Incubus or Train
34. FAVORITE FRIENDS TO HANG WITH: Aw! I can't choose between them!
35. AM I YOUR FRIEND: Er.. who?
36. PEN OR PENCIL?: Pen
37. M&M'S OR SKITTLES?: M&Ms
38. SPIN THE BOTTLE OR PENIS GAME?: o.O
39. WHAT MAKES THE OPPOSITE SEX NOTICE YOU: Ah.. I don't know.
40. WHAT TURNS THEM OFF OF YOU?: Well, I don't really know that either.
41. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER?: 20-30 depends how long I want to be left alone. In my house - the bathroom is the only place to be alone. >.<
42. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO GO ON VACATION: Anywhere but the midwest!
43. POOL OR TRAMPOLINE: Pool
44. BEST SUPERHERO?: Hm... Wolverine? He's a superhero, right?
45. ONE THING YOU CAN'T STAND?: two-faced people
46. FAVORITE DRINK?: diet pepsi
47. WORST FEAR?: Being alone
49. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD: Knowing you are loved
50. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: Being alone
51. BILL CLINTON: Dirty man. >.<
52. THE WHOLE ALIEN THING: Eh - who knows?
54. TEENAGE SMOKING: Idiots.
55. PREMARITAL SEX: Eh - the risks outnumber the pros.
56. ABORTION?: Depends on the situation
58. MARILYN MANSON: Creepy.
59. GUY BANDS: Eh, I'm past that phase
60. DEATH: A part of life.
61. LOVE @ FIRST SIGHT: very possible.
62. A CERTAIN PERSON OUT THERE FOR YOU: I certianly hope there is.
63. JERRY SPRINGER: Amusing - haha.
64. OSBOURNES: Eh - a waste of air time
65. FRIENDS: Worth watching
66. SURVIVOR: Blah! Damn reality shows!
67. SOUTH PARK: Kills brain cells
68. CHARITY: >.< Sad to say, you have to be careful. People are so evil these days. They'll rip you off.
69. GIRLS WITH LOTS Of MAKEUP: haha - makes you wonder what they REALLY look like. ^_^
70. GOD: Heaven
>>WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF...
71. RYAN: So many of them. Landis is my favorite. ^_^
72. KEITH: Melissa's 'friend'
73. ZACK: I bit him once when he was shaking his rain stick at me (no - that is not a figure of speech - it really was a rain stick!)
74. DANIELLE: Zach's icky ex
75. DREW: Kyle's 'evil brother' haha
76. STACEY: ;_; moved to Florida
77. STEPHANIE: Totally obsessed with Orli too! ^_^
78. LUCY: the nice lady from Steam Plant who has cancer
79. JENNA: Jenny’s doll haha
81. MEGAN: Oppie!
82. MELANIE: Luke’s mom & Emilee’s old babysitter
83: HEATHER: Hmmm… me?
84. AARON: … Carter?
85. LAURA: Moved to Iowa… ::tear::
86. AMY: Brendan’s sister
87. LISA: Hm… I don’t think I know a Lisa.
88. NATHAN: Aubree’s significant other
90. EVE: Hm… nope.
91. CODY: Ryan’s druggie friend
92. KATHY: Someone’s mom.
93. DAVID: Hm – Derek’s friend.
94. KATHERINE: Eh - Dunno
95. CATHERINE: Katie’s middle name
96. MELISSA: Aubree’s best firend
97. ASHLEY: ^_^ Friend
98. AMANDA: Vat of soup carrier Haha – good times!
99. ALEX: That annoying kid that no one likes
100. CAITLIN: Hm.. I only know one. That girl from grade school – with the redish hair.
101. GUS: The news paper guy from Never Been Kissed
102. PRESTON: Er… college?
103. ANNA: And the King
104. COKE OR PEPSI: Pepsi
105. LAKE OR OCEAN: Ocean
106. TV OR RADIO: TV
107. GOING TO THE MOVIES OR RENTING A MOVIE: Going to the movies! As long as Billy isn’t working. >.<
108. INNOCENT OR DIRTY: Innocent of course ^^
109. LOYAL OR LIAR: loyal
110. HUG OR KISSES: both
112. SHORT OR TALL: tall
113. DROP DEAD GORGEOUS OR JUST GOOD LOOKING: eh… just good looking?
116. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: chocolat (Johnny ::drool::)
117. HOCKEY OR FOOTBALL: Hockey! (Hey - you suck!) Who rides the short bus?! What about a porpoise?
118. ABERCROMBIE OR AMERICAN EAGLE: I have never stepped foot into Ambercrombie. So! Blah to you! American Eagle!
119. ADIDAS OR NIKE: Doesn’t matter to me.
120. FREDDIE OR RYAN: Freddie
121. JEN OR JOEY FROM DAWSONS CREEK: I don’t watch Dawson’s Creek
122. RED OR BLUE: Red
123. EMINEM OR WILL SMITH: Will Smith
124. CARNIVAL OR AMUSEMENT PARK: Amusement park
125. MACS OR IBM's: Uh… neither?
126. BRITNEY OR CHRISTINA: NEITHER!
127. WINTER FRESH OR DOUBLE MINT : winterfresh
>>HAVE YOU EVER...
128. BEEN ON A PLANE?: A little one
129. WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: Ah.. no not really – I waded
130. SWAM IN A LAKE: Yes
131. PEED IN A OCEAN: Eh, no
132. PEED IN A POOL: When I was little, yeah
133. GONE SKINNY DIPPING: Not that I know of.
134. WA WA WA : ok
135. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yes, of course
136. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH?: Heh ^^ Yeah
137. FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: Isn’t that dangerous?
138. GONE TO CHURCH: yeah
139. READ THE BIBLE: yep
140. CLIMBED A TREE: oh yeah
141. WATCHED DAWSON'S CREEK: nope
142. GONE WATER SKIING: attempted to
143. GONE SNOWBOARDING: nope
144. GONE SKATEBOARDING: haha – that’s a sight
145. FELL ASLEEP DURING A SCARY MOVIE: no…
146. GONE ALL NIGHT WITHOUT SLEEP: oh yeah
147. BEEN TO CAMP: nope
148. HAVE A CAMP: … what?
149. PLAYED SOCCER: in gym class
150. BEEN TO A MAJOR LEAGUE BASEBALL GAME: yep
151. SAW A PRO BASKETBALL GAME: nope
152. BEEN TO AN NFL GAME: nope
153. BEEN TO AN NHL GAME: nope
154. SAT IN A RESTAURANT WITHTHOUT ORDERING ANYTHING: yeah – with other people
155. EATEN SUSHI: nope
156. EATEN FISH: yes
157. WATCHED DIRTY DANCING: nope, but I hear it’s a good movie
158. AND DANCED ALONG: er.. no
159. WANTED TO DIE: no
160. MET A CELEBRITY: I wish! ::cries:: Johnny!
161. DRIVEN A CAR: yeah
162. DIDN'T WASH YOUR HAIR FOR A WEEK: ew! No!
164. BROKEN SOMETHING: ha, yeah
165. BOUGHT ICE CREAM FROM AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: no
166. DRIVEN AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: eh - no
167. THOUGHT ABOUT SUICIDE?: no
168. TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE: no
169. USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD: ha – are you kidding?
170. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SCARED OF GETTING SHOT: ha, when we were in St. Louis – it was scary.
171. GOTTEN A CAVITY: yeah
173. WATCHED SOMEONE DIE: technically we are all dying a little at a time – so yes.
174. CRIED SO LONG AND HARD YOU COULDN'T STOP SHAKING: yes…
175. GOT IN A FIST FIGHT: no
176. PUNCHED SOMEONE FOR NO REASON: yeah
177. THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE: yes
178. HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: yea – but it wasn’t taken seriously. I was 13! haha
179. WATCHED MTV/MUCH MUSIC AT 4 IN THE MORNING: Uh.. yep.
180. USED A PORTA-POTTY: yea, I hate those things!
181. BEEN ONLINE UNTIL 4 IN THE MORNING: Yep
182. USED SOMEONE FOR SEX: no
183. HAD SEX FOR MONEY: no
184. CHEATED ON YOUR GF/BF: no
185. CAUGHT A FISH: yeah
187. STREAKED: eh - no
188. BEEN HURT BY A GUY/GIRL YOU LIKED: yeah…
189. GONE TO ANOTHER STATE: yea
190. GONE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY: yeah
191. MOVED: when I was little
192. BROKEN THE LAW: probably
193. WHY: uh… “I shot a man just to watch him die”
194. HOW: with a gun?
195. KILLED SOMEONE: ::points to above:: yes!
196. KILLED SOMEONE IN YOUR THOUGHTS: haha!
197. SMOKED IN SCHOOL: no,
198. KISSED IN SCHOOL: no
199. BEEN SCARED ENOUGH TO PEE IN YOUR PANTS: no
200. BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK BY A "FRIEND": eh… kinda
201. STABBED A FRIEND IN THE BACK: not that I know of
202. WHO IS YOUR FAV. PERSON TO SHOP WITH: Hm.. my mom? She has lots of money!
203. WHO IS YOUR FAV. PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: Ryan ^_^ Yeah – he is the opposite sex so he knows everything about ‘em!
204. WHO IS YOUR FAV. PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT LIFE: Kyle H.
205. WHO DO YOU HATE: Sadly, I dislike a lot of people.
206. IF YOU WOULD KISS ANYONE YOU'VE WANTED TO KISS FOREVER WHO WOULD IT BE?: Does Orlando Bloom count?
207. GIRLS: What?
208. IN BETWEEN: What?
209. WHO WOULD YOU WANT TO MEET: Johnny Depp or Orlando Bloom! ::swoon::
210. WHO DO YOU MISS?: Tom
211. WHO HAVE YOU LIKED FOREVER?: Ryan Moore! Man, I had a crush on him in the 2nd grade! I don’t really like him now – but he’s the closest to ‘forever’.
212. WHO WOULD YOU DIE FOR? My family and friends
213. WHO IS THE ONE PERSON YOU KNOW WILL BE THERE FOR YOU FOREVER?: I don’t know… my parents I guess.
214. WHO IS THE NICEST FRIEND YOU KNOW?: Rachel
215. WHO IS THE MEANEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: My nephew
216. WHO DO YOU WANT TO MARRY: Eh – I don’t know that yet. I guess that man that ‘fills my gaps’. “I got gaps, you got gaps, together we fill each other’s gaps.” -- Rocky
217. WHY DID I SEND THIS TO YOU?: Wha-? I stole it from my new friend ^_^
218. TIME NOW: 10:47
 
     

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10:50pm 10/08/2003
 
mood: cheerful
You&apos;d Kick it With Captain Jack Sparrow
You'd kick it with Captain Jack Sparrow


Which Pirates of the Caribbean Character Would You Ravage?
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^_^
 
     

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10:43pm 10/08/2003
 
mood: amused
Jack Sparrow
Captain Jack Sparrow - This man will swoop down
from his mast, and sweep you off your feet. His
sense of spontaneity seems almost planned. But
no matter, you have fun doing it!


What charicter of Johnny Depp's is your match?
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In honor of seeing PotC for the fourth time today. That movie has consumed my life. >.< How sad is that?
 
     

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06:57pm 02/08/2003
 
mood: content
Good news! I got my license! I got up at six to make sure I got there before eight. Hah. The lady said I did very well - thank god. I also took a rather good picture! I always take horrible pictures so it was a surprise.

I was able to sleep in my own bed and then just drive to Teresa's the next morning. That was good.

I rented Edward Scissorhands and Chocolat last night. I cried during ES. I haven't seen it since I was really young - obviously I didn't understand it then. So - I didn't realize how sad it was. I love Johnny Depp's eyes. ::melt::

My nephew's birthday party was today. He got a lot of money. It's ridiculous. He's going to spend it all on Yu-Gi-Oh cards. He got a new bike - which is too big for him. He's going to break his neck.

My dad took forever to get ready to leave the party that it was too late to do anything afterwards. Didn't matter anyways. I didn't know who to call. Aubree wasn't home. I don't have Cheryl's number. And nearly everyone else is gone. I need more friends.

I'm tired. I fell asleep around 1:30 last night I think - I don't remember. I then slept til noon today. Jiminy. I was extremely grumpy when my mom came to wake me up. But she was nice enough to wrap my present for Kyle.

Yesterday morning when I went to babysit at Teresa's, I took a while to get my stuff together once I parked out by the road. Well - I went to open my door and there was dog right there by my window! It was this scruffy husky dog. Well, I couldn't tell if it was wearing a collar, so I didn't know whether or not I should get out of the car. I was afraid it would attack me or something! I don't like random dogs in my sister's neighborhood because they have evil dogs around there.

Well, I waited a while, and the dog disappeared. So, I got out of the car slowly, and as I went to grab my purse, the dog trotted up beside me. I noticed it had a tag on, so I check where it belonged. I coudln't find a name, but the address was on the road next to my sister's.

Well, anyways, I figured it would just go back home. So, I stood up and went to close my door, but the dog started sniffing the back of the front seat. I tried to call it out, but it woudln't listen to me. So I kinda backed away from the car and clapped my hands, hoping it would come to me.

Of course it didn't! It started sniffing the front seat and then must have decided it was worth enough and hopped in! I didn't know what to do! I tired grabbing it's choke collar, but it obviously didn't want to get out or it thought I was going to take it for a drive because it jumped to the passenger's seat! I was like "Wha-? NO! Get out! Get out of my car!" The thing just stared blankly back at me. I finally shouted a bit out of fustration and it got the hint and got out.

I was so grateful I started laughing. I locked my door and started towards the front door. The dog ran up behind me and followed me. When my sister answered the door, I asked her if she knew whose dog it was. She goes "Oh no, Smoky go home!" It was a neighbor's dog obviously.

I thought that was rather amusing.

I'm watching Chocolat at the moment. ::drools:: Johnny Depp is so damn sexy.

::scampers off to make a new Johnny icon::
 
     

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08:30pm 30/07/2003
 
mood: tired
News flash: My birthday is in an hour and a half.

I'm going to get up nice and early to go get my license. ::grins:: I'm excited.

Watch me fail... ::grumbles::

I spent my whole paycheck and then some at the bookstore. I bought my nephew his birthday present - three books. I got my niece a book as well - just so she wouldn't feel left out. Ha. I got Walden by Thoreau, The Catcher in the Rye by Salinger, Good Omens by Terry Pratchett & Neil Gaiman, and the Lord of the Rings trilogy. I figured I might understand and get the names right if I actually read the books. I'm currently reading the Hobbit - which I have had for a very long time but never got around to actually reading it.

These books will last me until school. I hope. I like books. ::laughs::

I should get to bed.

Oh! I think I will be having a birthday party - but not until mid-August because I don't have a free weekend until then. So! I would appreciate it if you guys would email me your phone numbers and/or addresses so I can invite you... that is if you actually want to come... ::pouts:: Yeah - HeatherBether05@aol.com in case you didn't know. Thanks a bunch guys!

::yawn:: night night
 
     

(8 kisses | lean and tilt...)

 
   
11:32pm 23/07/2003
 
mood: moody
Hm... life sucks.

Jenny choose tonight to tell me that she's sorry she and Amber have been excluding me for the last year. All those pent up feelings started spewing out, and I cried my eyes out for about an hour. She didn't make excuses. It was pretty much an "We did what we did and now I'm sorry".

I told her I didn't feel like I could forgive her. I told her I felt betrayed. We went though all of this once before - the thing with someone being left out. Last summer we vowed to not leave anyone out. I guess it's okay when you're not the one being left out, eh?

I'm beginning to wonder what I did to deserve this.

I told my mom I was slowly turning into a 'sad kid'. She rolled her eyes and told me to knock it off.

My second cousin Matt is getting married on Saturday. We went shopping today for the gift and our outfits. I got this dark dress from Old Navy. It's nothing like what I normally wear. I don't think I'm going to be too comfortable. >.<

We went to Target to get the gift. We took about two hours there alone. It was horrible. We kept going around - looking for different things. We ended up getting a framed painting. It wasn't someting I would want in my house - but they had it on their list. Anyways - there were two different pictures (2 in the series), well we picked up the ugliest of the two the first time. So I had it out, and my mom grabbed the next one and told me to put the other one back. Well - the pictures had these hooks on the back that slid down when it was held upright.

The rack was at the very top of the display. So - how do you think one is suppose to hang it back up if the hooks slide in? Therefore, I decided I would try some manuvers to get it back up there. I think I flipped it over at least three times and swung it back and forth and slowly brought it up to the level of the rack. ::laughs:: I bet I looked pretty funny.

My mom thought so. All of a sudden she broke out laughing and gasps. She goes "It looked like you were trying to sneak up on it!" The way she found it so hilarious made me laugh. So - this poor innocent woman walks down the isle looking at picture frames to find us laughing hysterically. She kinda looked at us funny for a while and then she started laughing too. I don't care if she was laughing AT us or WITH us. But, I always like to put a smile on someone's face.

Well - that's all for now.

Oh yeah - Billy talked to me, but didn't bring up what a sleeze he is.
 
     

(5 kisses | lean and tilt...)

 
   
11:39pm 22/07/2003
 
mood: accomplished
[Ryan]: your opinion matters
[Me]: does it?
[Me]: so - you wouldn't die it black if I told you not to?
[Ryan]: Just not now cause it disagrees with mine : )

I spent most of the night talking with Ryan and messing with PSP. I sucked up all of my creative energy by making my new icons. Go look at them! Now!

Yeah - so they are all Orli related. ^_^

I was actually thinking of making a Moulin Rouge icon.. but then I decided against it. Oh well.
 
     

(lean and tilt...)

 
Long week end...   
12:23pm 22/07/2003
 
mood: bitchy
Where should I start?

Let's see - my weekend in Wisconsin was rather uneventful. We didn't do much on Thrusday. Just set up camp and the like. Friday we went shopping for stuff for the family reunion.

Saturday was the family reunion. It was smaller than most years. Luckily it wasn't too hot. My sister and her family and I played volleyball for awhile. Until my sister went to bump the ball and knocked my nephew Kyle in the side of the head pretty hard. He fell down and started crying. >.< That was the end of that game.

Later on he also got smacked in the nose with a baseball, and it gave him a nose bleed. Man alive that kid is accident prone.

Speaking of accident prone - I fell in a hole at the end of our picnic table. I was wearing big clunky sandles - with about a three inch sole. I fell in the hole and twisted my ankle. It's still sore.

Sunday we went to the moives. ::squee:: We saw PotC. My sister, her kids, and my dad all went. Ken and my mom stayed back at camp. Party poopers. It was great. Everyone really liked it. Even my dad who rarely goes to movies.

We went to Office Max and got a bunch of free stuff. You know - all that 'free after rebate' deal. We got a computer chair for my room - it wasn't free, but really cheap. My mom got a cd burner - which I told her wasn't going to work with our computer, but hell, it's free!

We came home on Monday. From the those four days - the only mail I got was a postcard from Cheryl while she was at Bluelake. ^_^ It made me feel special. But, then I felt guilty because I didn't sent her a lettr. I'm sorry again Cheryl!

My parents went to my brother's house last night, only a few hours after we got back. My dad had gotten Greg and Kelli a computer chair for their office. ::sigh:: My brother skips out on our family reunion to work on his barn, and my parents come back with a GIFT. If I even as much as thought about not going, I would get the 'you're a lousy daughter' glare. But no, beloved Gregory gets a present and a pat on the shoulder accompanied with an 'we understand'.

Last night I found out Erinn broke up with Ryan. I hate to say it - but I had a feeling it would happen. I don't know. There's that protective part of me that says no girl will ever deserve him. There isn't much I can do. I listen to him when he needs me to, but I still don't feel like that's much.

Oh yes... and this whole thing with Billy.

I never want to see the bastard again.

When he was down in Chicago, he slept with someone. He knew the girl for two days, and they did it in the movie theater. He came home and pretty much told everyone, but made them swear they wouldn't tell me. What a fucking idiot. He tells my closest friends, did he think they would all choose loyalty towards him? No! Zach told Jenny to tell me. Billy told Zach and Emilio if they told me he would kick their asses. Ha, I would like to see him try! Jenny told me - "you don't want to have anything to do with him". She didn't want to tell me at first, but I told her I wanted to know. It took her forever to just get it out. My heart was beating so fast, and I was shaking. When Jen told me, all I could think was "I wish Ryan was here. I need him." Amazingly, not even a second later, he signed on. ::smiles::

I told him what happened, and I think he was more upset about it then I was. He said he hated him and knew he was bad news from the moment I told him about Billy's drinking. He said he wished he was here so he could beat the shit out of him.

I found out later that Billy had also told Rachel, but she didn't tell me because he said he would. Yeah right! Like the coward is going to tell me himself.

I hate him. He's such an idiot. I can't believe I started to like him.

I have to be going. Jess and Kyle want to go for a walk.
 
     

(3 kisses | lean and tilt...)

 
   
07:30pm 16/07/2003
 
mood: exhausted
I leave tomorrow for my family reunion. I'll be back on Monday. I'm hoping to persuade my family into seeing PotC while we are in Wisconsin.

My mother is pissed at me because I haven't been home all day to help pack. >.< I had to babysit, then I had driving. I got home and called Nicole to come over so I could show her what she'll have to do to take care of the animals. Then, Jenny called and Emilio was over there - showing them his puppies. He had promised he would call when he was over there. They were so cute! Aw, I wanted one.

Emilio looked really sad. I would be too if my best friend and significant other were both gone for a week.

Billy is an idiot. Nothing is going to happen between us. I suppose that is a good thing after all. I think I worry too much about what other people think. Jenny wants all of us to go out some time when we all get back. Just so Ryan will see that it won't work out.

Jenny obviously doesn't think it would. She still - er - never mind.

I know Orlando was in my dream again last night - I just don't remember what it was about.

Mom wants me to make a sign for directions - I ought to go do that. ::sigh::

Oh yeah - I had another go at the icon. Any better Liz?
 
     

(1 kiss | lean and tilt...)

 
   
07:53pm 15/07/2003
  I made my first attempt at a icon made with PaintShop Pro... ::sigh:: I will get better. I promise. ^_^

Last night, I crawled into bed around ten thirty to wait for my mom to get off the phone with my sister. But, I didn't make it that long. I must have fallen asleep right away because the last thing I remember was looking at the clock. I don't remember a single dream either. I was out like a rock.

I didn't want to get up this morning either. It was about eight o'clock when my mom told me to get up. It look me a full half hour to get out of bed and climb in the shower. I had violin lessons at 9:45. Then an eye appointment at 11:15. Luckily they are really close.

The appointment went well. I still have 20/20 vision - but I missed a few letters the lady said. My mom attributes it to the fact that I haven't gotten much sleep this week. When the specialist looked at my retina, she said it looked great. She couldn't tell I was a diabetic by my eyes. There is this disease you get when your diabetes is affecting your body badly. There is no sign of it on my retinas. Thank goodness.

To look at my retinas, they had to dilate my eyes. ::laughs:: Oh goodness - I walked outside of the building and nearly screamed because it was so bright. I had to squint all the way to the car - which wasn't far, but still left open the opportunity for me to run into something.

I didn't feel to well for the rest of the day. I think I was still tired. I came home and waited for Jessica and Kyle to go back home before taking a nap. I think it was around five when I fell asleep, and I woke up around nine.

I had an interesting dream. Guess who was in it? ::grin::

I remember being with Liz at a cafe. We must have been in college together you see. I was reading a book and discussing it with her. I can't remember what the book was though. ::shrugs:: Anyways - we were sitting there, and this guy comes up and sits down at our table. Liz stopped talking for a moment and said hello then went back to commenting on the book. I looked over at the guy and guess who it was! Orlando Bloom! Funny thing was - we never called him Orlando. So, he wasn't actually famous or anything.

Anyways - he reached over and kissed my cheek then asked me how I was. We continued to chat for a while then left the cafe. I don't remember what happened next - you know how your dreams shift and then you're in a completely different setting? Yeah, that happened.

We ended up in a gym like place, watching a movie projected on the wall. I never looked at the movie. Hell, if Orlando Bloom was my boyfriend - I wouldn't be looking at the movie either! He was laying on his back, looking up at the ceiling and I was laying on my stomach so our heads were next to each others. We had gotten in a fight because he seemed upset, and I was near tears.

I told him Liz and I were going back to our dorm and I wanted him to call me later. He shook his head, sort of shrugging me off. I told him I was sorry, I 'just wasn't ready'. Ha, I didn't want to sleep with him! That's what the whole fight was about. I again asked him to call me so we could talk, and he said he didn't want to talk about it. We did enough talking, he said. He was talking rather harshly all this time, and I was becoming closer and closer to tears.

Liz came over to us and informed me that her car was stolen. ::snigger:: You didn't seem to bothered by it, Liz. Anyways - Orlando said he would drive us back to the dorm, which surprised me because he was so upset. I don't remember the car ride - but I remember Orlando walking us to our dorm room.

All the way there, he would knock on doors as he passed. Every single door - I was beginning to wonder what he was doing, but I didn't dare as him because he was still miffed. We were only a couple of doors away from ours, when one of the doors Orlando knocked on opened. It was a girl, and Orlando looked back at me, and he looked really sad. He goes "It was fun love. I'm sorry" and then he disappeared into the girl's dorm.

o.O I remember Liz patting my arm, and then I woke up feeling generally pretty depressed. Well, I'm glad I kept my morals on a high pedestal and everything - but to turn down Orlando Bloom? When I was clearly a condsenting adult? Stupid stupid. Aw - I hope I have a dream tonight where we make up. ::laughs::

Look what I can do in my dreams. I really do have him on the brain - don't I? I think I have officially become obsessed. Yes - it is offical.

Someone should make a list of guidelines to know when you are obsessed with someone or something.

"You know you're obsessed when..."

Every other guy looks like Orlando Bloom in some way?

You don't eat dinner because you're too busy staring at the guy at the other table who is the latest guy who resembles Orli?

No joke. That actually happened. My dad wanted to go to dinner last night - he had to go to that buffet place. I filled up on a salad that was the size of the plate. Oh, I also had a bowl of soup. After that, I was full. So - as my parents ate, I stared at this guy that looked a lot like Orli. I'm not just seeing things this time - my mom even said he looked like him.

Guess who the guy was? All of you that when to my elementry school - do you remember Chase Robins? ::laughs:: He kinda disappeared - no one really knew what happened to him. Well, it was his brother! I'm presuming it was his brother at least. It just made sense - parents two nearly-grown-children.

I stared at him for a really long time. Ha - so he was bound to noticed, right? Yeah, he did. He made eye contact and smiled, then looked away again.
I think it would be flattering to know that you are being stared at - even if it had nothing to do with you. ::laughs::

We were driving home - rather I was driving. I'm going along, and I glanced in my rearview mirror and saw him. I sort of laughed and go "THERE HE IS!" My mom - who had complained about my staring all through dinner - goes "ooo, ooo, where?". She was moving all over the back seat, trying to see him. ::rolls eyes::

Oh yes - I forgot to add my mother's comment. When he looked at me - he did it several times - my mom goes "He's making eyes at you. Stop it!"

My mom uses some of the strangest expressions. "Making eyes"? What does that mean exactly?

Ah - I've got to get off the computer. I have to go to my sister's house again. Blah >.
 
     

(5 kisses | lean and tilt...)

 
   
03:30am 14/07/2003
 
mood: sleepy
YOu see the world in Neutral
Neutral:
Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the
world in a negative or positive way and you'll
never judge or assume a situation- you just
look at the facts. People like you are peaceful
and accepting.

Made by
Sara



What color do you see the world in?
brought to you by Quizilla
 
     

(lean and tilt...)

 
   
02:08am 14/07/2003
 
mood: amused
I took three IQ tests. One said I had an IQ of 137. Another said...

"Your IQ score is 135

According to the sorts of questions you got correct, we can tell your Intellectual Type is a Visionary Philosopher.

This means you are highly intelligent and have a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a variety of different ways. Like Plato, your exceptional math and verbal skills make you very adept at explaining things to others — and at anticipating and predicting patterns."

While the final one said...

"Congratulations!
Your general IQ score is 154.

A person whose IQ score falls in the range of 144-160 is considered to be "gifted". "

o.O Who would have thought?

(extra note: it is now 4:27 am, I had five hours in the last... er... nearly 48 hours. I got a 122 on the International HIgh IQ Society IQ test. Crazy. I'm beginning to think I may actually be somewhat intelligent!)
 
     

(lean and tilt...)

 
   
12:50am 14/07/2003
 
mood: shocked
www.colorquiz.com

Just by clicking blocks of color, they deducted all of this. It is unnervingCollapse )
 
     

(lean and tilt...)

 
   
11:24pm 13/07/2003
 
mood: excited
Oh! I forgot to mention this! I found the Elfish Lord of the Rings font. ^_^ That made my night.

::dances about::

One final note: ORLANDO BLOOM IS THE SEXIEST MAN ALIVE!
 
     

(lean and tilt...)

 
Happiness abound!   
09:55pm 13/07/2003
 
mood: jubilant
"Haha... 'dropped the bacon'"
"Oh my goodness... You've lost it."
--- me and Jenny

"Oh, I'm sorry love, just ignore those creepy naked children with wings.."
--- me commenting on the Angel font to Liz

Further funniness... READ IT!Collapse )

I'm in a very good mood.

My mom and I had a bonding day today. We went shopping and out to eat for lunch. I asked my mom a bunch of questions about her and Dad's 'beginnings'. She smiled and leaned on the table. It was nice to see my mom so happy. I felt like I should be writing a book about my experience. Like, no matter how much my mom and I fight, it all melts down to that one moment when we can talk like best friends.

I'm making a vow to be closer to my mom than my brother and sister. Sure, she's one of those people that has to have everything 'just so' and can be quite annoying. But, she's our mom. That means a hell of a lot more than when she embarrasses us to death. Right? She gave birth to us! We were all in her womb! Er.. well, not at the same time of course. But you know what I mean.

I'm in such a great mood. ::frolicks:: haha I looked at that and thought "licking a fro, that would be really gross!".

I can't spell if my life depended upon it. Well - maybe not to that extreme.

OH! Do you know what!? I found a font completely composed of turtle symbols! Liz and I agreed that 'people like us' come up with things like that. Kinda like the Angel font.. ::shudders:: There was another font that had normal lettering... save the cerub floating in the corner. They were scary. Liz and I were discussing what it would be like if that is all you had to type with. Wouldn't that be horrible!!? That's where the quote came from.

Jenny thinks I'm off my rocker. That's okay. I'm happy and I'm making other people laugh and smile and such. That's good enough for me.

Watch... I'll be depressed tomorrow. ha.

Hey Ryan, maybe I am bipolar! o.O
 
     

(lean and tilt...)